i try to be strong when i felt down, i try to smile when i cry inside my heart, my tears was dry n im dying to get a new life in somewhere that i belong...love come n go, sometimes they only visting ur heart n they will leave u n u dunno when its happen!my heart was broke few times!i tot that was the end of everything!i try to run away, run away from the reality, i finnaly found that life is not always look like paradise,isnt it?decide to move back my country, work as a primary school teacher..tot going to changed my life...but i was wrong once again, move to anywhere my heart was still the same...the feeling just dun want to fade away...sumtimes i cried in the middle of the nite..but once more time i try to be strong to face the truth...im tryinnnnggggggggggggg.....dammmmmmmmmnnnnnnn i hate to see everyone keep playing with my heart!!!why they said they love me if they also did the same to other gals?my wish is so that tommorow will come faster, cause i always have a beautiful mind about tommorow, tommorow will be a better day!

dear yef,
im sorry for everything that i did, but nobody perfects, y u always said that the fault was on me?have u ever take a good look at urself?have u ever see that u care for me??have u??????have u ever see u being nice to me??have u???all things was bullshit!all promises n sweet talk,all was nonsense

dear wahyu,
i dunno y i luv u again, u broke my heart 4 years ago, now u did the same!
i tot time will changed people but y u still stay the same?y u ask me wat is love?have u never felt that before?so wat did u feel to me?am i just such a toy for u???quit playing games with my hearttttttt wahyu!i had enaugh!u come to heart n slice it, hurt it again n againnnnnnnnnn...........cant u see how much i love u?how much i done for u?

dear sanna,
have u ever said that u going to tell me when the days come for us to let go everythings?????is this the way that u mean?????be happy n i will happy 4u!

dear jerrel,
i dunno n i cant see wat is in front of us sweetie, oneday, someday, we will know whether that pact will come true or not?but right now, this time, im here kneel down on my knees pray for us, if it is the way for us to be together then let it be cause my heart was broke few times, n its damn heart to start fell in love again..but like wat u said, dun think it too much, just go with the flow, its spontenous!wish tommorow come faster